65th Entry:- 1st & 2nd Jan

Entry # 65 ( This figure is kind of popular when Faye Wong sings this song)

Hi everybody! Guess wat? I didn't go out to countdown for year 2006. Isn't it weird? Hm.. guess not for NYP CPT student who need to study so hard for the up and coming papers. To be frank, I've been trying to adapt to the change in module as well as lecturer. No point keep complaining that don't understand what the hell the lecturer is trying to teach. Guess that we just need to perform to our optimal level will do. As for the rest, I guess let god handle it. Although I am not a Christian but everybody has his or her own belief. I guess we really need to put our soul and heart to at least a place to depend on.

December 2006 only have one entry. Haha...Guess that u guys must be wondering hm.. wat happen on Christmas? What happen on New Year Eve?

I remember I was feeling quite lost. Even one of my senior who broke up with her gf for quite sometime always like to ask or talk abt love life. He asked back the same qn. why don't you get a bf so that someone can share your worries or so called burden. Well, I think I can share this with my closed friends. No..I should say, people are too busy to be bother by the sad things. haha.. just imagine before i could even sit and breathe properly, one week break has already gone. I still stick on to my principles in life. I don't even can juggle my studies, how to juggle a relationship? Which requires effort, time time time time.

Year 2005 ended.. saw li ting do a summary of wat are the things tt had happen. she is keeping track of her life.. at time i hate myself who lost track of my goals my dreams.. i jeopardize alot of things.. feeling of hopeless helpless.. bu zhen qi... kind of lousy and sucks. back to the 'FEAR'. We are living with fears which restrict us from getting the things that we want.

some of the memorable days i had for December.
went to a place which i dun noe the name.. haha.. hearing true life stories. then feel that sometime it is really hard to determine fair and unfair. you might be the one who is giving your best to the family but at the end of the day, all the credits all i would say no one appreciates and treat u like an idiot. of coz giving doesn't mean that we are awaiting for rewards. but just that since life is so short why don't we encourage more and discourage less. sometime our fear really overtakes us. which i feel pretty sad.

Pressure..
Spring without pressure will not propelled.
Carbon without pressure will not become a diamond also.
Human Beings without pressure will not shine and propelled in life also!!

We all have dreams to achieve. When we are young, we always so daring and say that we want to be a doctor, lawyer, teacher, scientist..and many mant some might be quite extreme. But when we are young, so called naive didn't think much and say it without even thinking how pple will look at us. We care too much abt how people look at us! too self-conscious, self-centered. pride. all these cannot feed us.

so if a qn were to post on you
Pride and Money , which would u go for?

Many might go for pride.
But in this realistic world. Pride Passion cannot really feed ur whole family. Feed urself maybe not ur family.
No Money No Pride. Haha.. seems like so money-minded.

I think that things that can be solved by money is not considered as a problem.
Divorce is due to financial
alot of things also involve with money.
for example sibling's relationship can get worsen due to money also.
even niece or nephew might also look down or dislike this particular uncle or aunty because of their past doings.

In Life, to leave a legacy behind is not a easy task. To give papa n mama good life also not easy. Always good to plan early. Seek advice from those who've already done it. then follow their footsteps. To take up a challenge requires us lots of courage. BUt then haha.. if we don't do other people will still do it. by that time want to regret also too late.

Ren zui pai de shi zai lao de shi hou mei you hui yi
mei you hui yi bu yao jin
bu yao liu xia yi han

A person biggest fear is that they have no memories when they grow old
No memories nevermind. But live with regrets.

People are in nature negative. we have 50000 thoughts per day. 80% are negative. only 20% or 5% are positive. so it's natural that we receive more discourage than courage.

YEar 2006 is here for us to mark each day of our life with memories. Live life to the fullest. never stop doing the good things. never stop sharing the good things. for those who have misconcerption on you in the past might finally understand you if they really put in the effort to find out. haha.. well. All the Best to my friends.. be it poly, sec, pri , kawan..

All the best...
Best Wishes from Xiao Mei