58th Entry : My mum n me

58th Entry! 8th May : Z chen's bdae
Just finished folding incense paper... Gold / bronze to yellow colors. Since young, I used to help grandma fold those incense paper to burn it to my late ancestors. Just now had a good session with mum I guess. You Know What? My mum actually was playing Stairway To Heaven's episode 17 and just nice when I reached home... I hesitate awhile, to recall what's the date for today... Then recalling that it was already past 12 midnight n I was still in the train with stallions.
It's already 27th Oct 05.. Left 5 days to month end.

It's been such a long time I have time to sit down with ma to chit chat with her. Sometime I think back.. Recalling the past.. I never failed to make my eyes watery whenever I do that. No idea why? Just by thinking.. My tears will haha just flow down due to gravity. Not only my mum.. Sometimes think about my dad I also feel .... Don't know how to describe. I think is a sense of treating them or taking them for granted. sobsob..

I always want myself to be a stronger person. Guess that nobody wants to fail in life but then our bad habits are the ones that will keep us away from our destinations or even the journey towards the destination.

While folding the incense paper... I watch the show also.. Ha.. Cried not because of the sad scene. Is just that my mind is telling me to wash my eyes. How foolish for a person to cry for no good reasons right? haha... School going to start soon... So far my achievements I am not so satisfy. Probably abit of satisfaction abt my improvement. My interpersonal skills improve. Able to break ice with people quite well I guessed. Even for strangers I guess probably spending around 5-10 minutes will already make that person one of my acquaintances. Yup, all these skills I don't think in school we are able to fully practice or learn it from our lecturers.

Two days back which was Monday. I was chatting with my 3rd Bro online in MSN. He was staying in the school campus. 2nd and 3rd Bro seems to have telepathy or what. Asked the same question on the same day just that different channel. Asking about my results, well I guess although I didn't manage to push my GPA to 3.0 but at least for the 1st sem or Programme 4 my GPA for that Sem alone is 3.0 plus if not how to push up from 2.6 to 2.9 right? Think I should be contented with what I have. I am not a perfectionist I am just someone who wants to keep upgrading or keep breaking my virture limits to be a better Shu Mei.

Doing things individual will get demoralise or lose confidence easily. But doing it as a group will not. One can motivate each another. How I wish I can see that soon? Nobody wants to find a totally cold prospect to work with. It's just that people around us will or never or unwilling to give a chance to me or themselves.

Been typing for more than 20 minutes already guess that I should stop here. Nite.